Do not

If you see me gazing
into the night sky, eyes
completely withdrawn
from the essence around
me, do not try to pull
me back

If you notice engravings
on my skin, do not sit there
and talk to me about it, do
not suggest I see a therapist.

If you notice my body
becoming one with itself,
please do not touch me,
do not hold me, do not beg
for a simple short hug,
because that simple hug,
sends nothing but shock waves
down my spine, delivers nothing
but the aching feeling of my skin
brushing up against another human,
I cannot be held.

If you notice my hips
becoming wider, my stomach
becoming thicker and
my mouth becoming curbed,
do not ask me for a response,
do not try to convince me that
my body matters, do not try to
implement the idea of happiness
into my blue soul, that train has
long passed.

Friend, I tell you
Do not customise your
feelings to match mine,
do not send me your love
letters, your worried letters,
your happy letters, do not suggest
we speak over the phone

Most importantly, do not
get upset with me, my actions
are only limitations of the feelings
I ply within, do not argue with me,
As I am already arguing with myself,
do not curse me, for I am cursing myself,
friend I tell you, let a broken girl be broken,
do not try to resurrect my battered soul, for
no one will have the ability too.

Reviews

[SuspectGray]

Ouch!!!! It must hurt being you. I spite of the subject I enjoyed how well you put it together. "Do not" change a thing ( : O )

[McBear]

A very wide, deep meaning was deposited into my mind with this one. You cannot force someone to do something; may it be affection, help or anything else. Some people do not care to listen and make others angry, In this poem, you explain what you do not like which is completely your right. Well done.

[Lilaa]

I really appreciate you taking your time and reviewing my work! Thank you so much and its true, people often force little things onto you, not knowing its taking a toll on your health in general.

[McBear]

You nailed it :) And, yes, anytime! Taking time out of my day to review makes me happy because I am sure I am making them happy too! :)

[Gaurav]

This is a beautiful poem. I liked it. I always abhor people who like to customize others. No one should ever impose his/her autobiographical thoughts on others. It is simply restricted. Nice read. Good efforts.

[Lilaa]

I appreciate the feedback, thank you so much :)