Anxiety

When I tell you that

there is a ghost living

inside of my body, people

tell you to run, as fast 

as you can to avoid being 

the safety net my soul

needs.

When I tell she clenches 

onto my chest like her very

own life line, you pause, 

looking at me as if I was 

mental, in disbelief that 

someone could be in 

so much pain 

When you noticed my palms 

sweating and my body shaking

in front of your friends,

you never helped, instead you 

watched as she clenched onto 

my chest, hands gripping around

my throat, you watched as anxiety 

carried me in her arms, with a 

force so suffocating, you stood 

there as if my existence was 

no longer relevant

When I begin to re-gain my ability 

to have a conversation without feeling

hot sweats emerge from my paws, a 

shaken up body and eyes that drifts

so far from the sea, there is no doubt 

in my mind that someone will destroy 

my endowment to ever do it again. 

People tell me to "Just go talk", or 

"You'll be ok",  the truth is I won't be 

ok, I am never "ok"

My anxiety is the friend I don't want to have,

she makes herself at home and digs a hole

deeper every time she stays. 

Reviews

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I understand this write very much. You did a great job reflecting all:)

[Shon Harvis]

I love this. I can relate. Anxiety is a b***h and I wish her on no one. I love how you made her a ghost living inside. Very creative and unique.

[McBear]

I can relate to this very much. People would get scared of me when I would describe my deep pain from anxiety and depression. They would tell me to get over it and that it would be okay. Even when would take medications, it would cause more problems, conflicting with other issues. I am on lexapro right now because when I don't take medications, I am a real monster; unwilling to live any longer. I am constantly tired as a side effect but I am happy to be alive. Trust me, my friend, I am someone who can help you and be here to talk if you need it :) I gave this example so I can remind you that you're not alone :) I loved the poem. Well done.

[TheMalady]

You have the unique way of writing a poem. it is new and refreshing. A poem that tells a story which is very classic however, people of our era can greatly relate to it since it speaks of another form of friendship. There is nothing for me to criticize about your poem. It's just touching and leaves one to stop and think about the people around them. :)

[Writing Angel]

sad..but very thought provoking..i love it...it was amazing