This life of mine .

Why is life getting so hard lately ? I feel like everyday is living hell . 

They think there is nothing wrong because of my fake smile , but honestly I'm losing this mind of mine . 

You will never know because I look perfectly fine but I'm not . 

I'm suffering everyday and just trying to survive .

My father left me because I wasn't worth it , my grandpa touched me even when I told him to stop , and I have no ability to trust a man . 

I hate myself that's why I let boys use me . 

I never love but when I do it's to a boy who just wants what I can give him ..