My Shattered Reflection

I wrote this when the guy i was in love with dumped me. Please don't judge if you don't believe in love or judge me because I'm 13 and at this age there no way I know what love is cause thats bull.

What do you do if your world comes crashing down around you & you loose the most important thing to you. 
I still miss you. 
I cant help but always think about you.
Our kiss, Your lips, Your arms around me, Your words I thought you meant about me. 

I love you is the biggest lie Ive ever heard.
Its just a f*****g 8 lettered word.
But guess what baby so is I hate you. 
When you said I love you I believed you,
now I sit here wondering why I fell for you,
now I gotta move on a learn to live with out you.

My heart is like a smashed up shattered mirror.
My reflection isnt getting any f*****g clearer.
Im broke, Im shattered,
Im chewed up, I dont matter,
I was a waste of your breath,
A waste of your time,
I'm sorry I'll move one now,
to someone that actually matters.

I regret giving you what you wanted.
I regert believing what you said.
I wanna slice my throat open but I'll settle for revenge
Dont worry, baby
Karma's coming after you for leaving me
One day youll come crawling back to me
But thats sad cause I can do better then,
better then what I had so
Sianara baby untill I get over you
Ill pretend we never happened

A smile, a bright side,
no dinal, its like Im just the perfect lil child on the outside
but on the inside Im a train wreck,
Im and uttlery confuzzled mess.
A mixed up jig saw puzzle in distress.
You ruined me my life is now a mess
It's like a tornado took the best of me,
The rest of me,
Spun me around till i couldnt see,
Took the only thing ill every need & hide it away
Now im playing hide and seek blindfolded
In a world that has been shaken
And nothings in its right place
So you'll never be found
Ill just keep looking in a world tht spins round n round.

My heart is like a smashed up shattered mirror.
My reflection isnt getting any f*****g clearer.
Im broke, Im shattered,
Im chewed up, I dont matter,
I was a waste of your breath,
A waste of your time,
Im sorry Ill move one now,
to someone that actually matters.

My tears are what I could never say,
Your eyes tell me your true feelings,
My scars are the only wounds i have left of you,
Your lies are now showing me the truth about you,
How im better off without you 
Im cooping and im living without you.
My life is a disaster.
You useless f*****g b*****d.
You were the only thing that mattered.
Now that your gone.
All that was wrong left with you.
Thats why I can live with out you,
You took my worries away when you left me.

Reviews

[felica mariiee]

thank you extremely for your great motivation its much appreciated, not that much support for my work at home.

[nothing but poetry]

emotional write and deeply moves the strings on the heart.

[Wednesday]

I love this. You described how you really felt and let it all out. That's what poetry is about. Getting your feelings out in a way you can't use in normal conversations.