12.28.17

Crash. It happened.
The thing that I feared for so long it happened.
My irresponsibility,
procrastination, and the
belief that I am immune to any concrete consequences finally caused the crashed that I have feared.
On that Friday my world stopped.
Quickly forced to come down from my created reality and face the aftermath of the crash
that had just happened.
I was not driving alone, I rode with people I love.
I turned to them for help but they too had been injured.
I never imagined that this crash would hurt this much, that the damaged would be permanent.
All of me entered a dark place, where the only way there could be light was if I burned.
And I burned every layer of me down to my core.
Slowly exposing raw sides of me I had yet to meet.
The raw places that produce genuine energy,
that real s**t that can't be shoved down turned off.
That loud energy that keeps you up and when you finally rest
it's there too, causing those sweaty sleepless nights.
I tried to overcome this energy but all attempts bring me back to the start.
Is there a way to metabolize this energy to produce internal growth.
I guess that's where I am confused.
What is the next step? Is there a next step?

Reviews

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Simple poem with so many themes to take into consideration. Good read