If Only You Knew...

If only you knew
If only you had a clue
Do you see anything?
Apparently not
You can't see what you've put me through.

Leaving... But staying....

You're torturing me...
Killing me slowly
I must like pain
I fall for it every time.

I can't push away your hugs
I can't look down from your gaze
Those eyes...
I can't get you out of my head

But at the same time I'm so unhappy, so angry, so heartbroken.
I don't want to see your beautiful face
I don't want to hear that wonderful laugh
Or see the brilliant smile that still lights all the corners of my darkness
But especially
I can't look into your eyes.

If only you knew.

But you couldn't imagine it, could you?
It doesn't seem to hurt you at all.
"I'm trying to focus on moving on" you say
Move on? To what, something in a short skirt that won't love you as much as I do?
I can't give up on you, but you wear me down
You take all of my energy
All of my time
All of my heart.

Take it, I don't want it without you.

And to those friends, precious and few
Who never even knew what I went through
Don't try to imagine.
Don't tell me time heals all wounds.
This ones pretty damn deep.
I don't mean to push you all away
Or hurt you
Or make you worry.
But I have to.
Just leave me to my darkness. I need to be alone.

If only He knew……

Author's Note

Easy on the reviews, guys. I'm still in pain and there's alot going on…
Just to clarify, the first part is to a special person who left, the second is to the friends that remain.
And thanks to all of you, who make my works mean something

Reviews

[Glen Yumang Manese]

SEEMS YOU ARE VENTING IN THE LINES AND THE COPING WITH THE REALITY OF IT ALL...WHICH IS A GOOD THING TO LET IT ALL OUT IN THE OPEN...THIS HAS MANY PARTS IN THE LINES AND YOU WEAVE THEM INTO ONE COMPLETE THOUGHT...