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I started to write this and at first it was hard to write then the words just spilled out so enjoy....

Dear,________

I wish I could tell you I love you... I wish you would return my love... It feels like a small part of me dies every time I look at you with out confessing my love. I'm not quiet sure what I need to do to get you out of my system. Sometimes i wish I could just leave and let you be, only then all the sun that's left in my dismal little world would leave right along with you.

But when these thoughts of cutting our ties cross my mind you turn in the crowd and wave me to your side and whisper in my ear that I'm the best friend you have in the world. My heart does a somersault and you wink at me with those emerald eyes and add "my life wouldn't be the same if you weren't there". And that flicker of hope that's in the very darkest corner of my heart says stay just a little bit longer and maybe just maybe he'll open his eyes and see whats right infront of him. If only if only I whisper to myself!

There I go again trying to come up with an excuse that let's me put my emotions on this roller coaster... You know sometimes I just sit and look out my snow covered window and think of all the times we shared laughing, crying,confiding in each other and I smile but then I think what if one day I leave will those memories go with me or will they melt like the snow under the first rays of sun after the blizzard. I'm not sure I could tell myself that I wasn't someone special to you and that you wouldn't spend time remembering what we shared and had. But then maybe my problem is I put you on this pedastal of dreams, that no matter what I'll never be able to reach you. This is torture tettering between what I want and what's best for me.

 

So you see no matter what I do or what I think of, my thoughts always float back to you my secret love, my bestfriend, my rock when I need something to lean on. I realize,that you might be the one person on this god forsaken planet that could could stop the darkness outside from seeping in, and be that rock I lean on, I know I'm just hurting myself and If I'm not careful pretty soon I won't be able to move at all. And as much as I would like for you to keep dragging me on in a false hope that you aren't even aware of. I fear that if I ever want to try and get over you and have a life on my own I have to let you go.

One day I hope  we'll be together and find the love I was always looking for, and when that day comes in a few days,or a few months or a few years, or maybe even the next lifetime. I know in my heart what I feel for you, you'll feel for me. So for now untill that time comes I'm gonna go my way and you can go yours and even though we might be two miles apart of 200,000 miles apart  I can take comfort that in the future we'll see each other again.

Even though this is the hardest thing I've ever done I know it's what's right but before I go, I want you to know that I only have the deepest love for you and I always will. And if there is ever a day that you need me just remember my love will always be there for you to have. I  LOVE YOU!!!! 

 

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Author's Note

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Reviews

[Rebecca Rogers]

Awww this is touching :(

[poetic soul]

its very very warm and moving... i was almost out of breath! missed a beat while reading it.......... lovely words and one of the finest love letters..........

:)

Smiles,
Poetic soul