A depressing piece

Just more feelings from deep within

A depressing piece


Im a man of love, I am a man of hate.
Bi-polar consequences with no means of escape.
Never knowing what my mentally instability my bring.
One day a common peasant, the other day an angry king.
No hope for me, I struggle just to get through the day.
Often letting go, watching myself slip further away.
Madness to happiness, happiness to tormenting pain.
I often question myself, am I really sane?
The stress of my ever changing moods leaves me blind.
And I will regret leaving my loved ones behind.
Suicide tempts me as God turns away.
Another emotional disaster is under way.
The life I live is not the choice I made.
To far gone for any medication to save.
Dreams are nightmares and nightmares is my life.
Struggling once again to make things right.
But how many of my wrongs will be forgiven?
Staying quiet, keeping my emotional fears hidden.
A laugh is never a burden, my happiness has just gone away.
Self tormented and I can only make others pay.
I know deep down inside there s a happiness to be set free.
But how much more can I drive with my tank on empty?
A compliment or positive gesture is often discarded.
As my sadness and emptiness remain unguarded.
This is the end as the shadows of my mind draw near.
Everything in my life still remains murky and unclear.
Bleeding myself to death I never thought it would go this far.
Fading away only to say good-bye with one final scar.
I really loved you all and I am sorry I failed to repent.
From hell my love letters shall be sent.