So Sick Of This

Sick of it...But I don't want to stop loving him...

 Last time I give my heart to another

 Final time I fall victom to heartbreak

Never fall in love again

I give you my everything

My all

And You handed it right back

You just gave it back

...

But not because you didn't want it

 

Every time I give out my heart

Every time I dedicate my soul

Every time I fall in love...

It flies back only to shove a knife in my heart

To carve away at my heart

 

In the darkness of the night, in the midst of my nightmares

All I hear is the chipping away, the carving of my heart

The hole in the center of my heart

Lonliness...Sadness...Pain filling the gap

 

You were my light that made night as bright as day

You were the air around me that I would breathe to keep me alive

Now I'm just lying hopelessly on the ground

Struggling to breathe, calling for air

Trapped in the dark, calling for light

 

I'm

So Sick Of This

 

So sick of the sleepless nights

So sick of the crying when I've run out of tears

So sick of the lonliness

So sick of not being good enough to deserve someone elses love

So sick of the shaking and shivering in the heat

So sick of the lonliness

So sick of the emptiness

So sick of the Unbearable Pain

 

No longer can I hold you

No longer can I kiss you

No longer can I call you mine

 

"My heart is still yours."

 

Why did you say that?

If I can't be with you

...

Why am I still yours?

 

 

I love you

...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Why are you still mine?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                                              -Mizuki Tsukiakari

Author's Note

What do you think? Can you understand it?

Reviews

[Dr.Who.LOVER]

I can understand it. I like it.

-VampireChick

[Ashimoto]

That was a great poem. It was very deep and sad because it was true. Love can go 50-50 and most of the time, you feel like it's always on the losing side. Don't give up hope though. Because some else is thinking the same thing and then they meet you. :)

[Daydreamer54]

Sadly that comes with loving someone, a possible outcome of heartbreak. Wonderful poem here! I liked the picture too btw! :)

[Bodhisattva]

A really painful poem. It is really painful when your heart is broken sO many times you want to give up and never fell in love again. Love is that feeling that keeps you going and that feeling that makes you fall right on your face and cry for days and even you can still cry for year painful moment are never really forgotten. Love that you capture it so well here this is an amazing painful poem

[Cassiopia Summers]

Mizuki. I understand your pain from the words of this poem, but don't let it get you down.