Open Door

Watching the butterfly

 

Its not everyday I open

up my doors to unassuming

eyes to see through everything

I have hidden and tucked

in nooks and crannies

 

(Thank you Mr Haitian Rum,

Thank you Mr Tezcal Tequila)

 

Its not an everyday thing

for me to say

 

"Here I am, ugly flaws

and all, for your

inspection"

 

but I do, I have

I will again

because that's just

how much of an emotional

masochist I am.

 

Pick at the scabs

trip in the craters

bring a flashlight

my heart isnt an easy

maze to make through

 

Neither is my mind

for that matter

but you're taking

it upon yourself

to be a savior

to a very tired girl

who doesn't see

the point in needing

saving in the first

place.

 

I won't stop you

I may laugh at you,

cause it's been attempted

before, and yes, as you ask

yourself,

 

"Is she worth it?"

 

I think Im worth the

midnight crazies

I am worth the clenched

fisted stubborn arguments

 

I am worth it and then some

 

But then again, I live

with myself

 

every

single

day.

 

 

Reviews

[You Don't Know Me]

I like this, a lot. You have a really unique writing style. I love the stream of consciousness feel combined with your unique voice. I think this is something we can all relate to, but something most of us don't write about.

I especially love the part about being 'a savior to a very tired girl'. I think we all have that desire to rescue a person we believe needs it. However, not many stop and think of how it's viewed through the other person's eyes.

[Forest Green]

The payoff of self-detention; our personal breakfast club on a day by day basis. We benefit from knowing ourselves; and how often our attempts to change our 'ourself' is met with mirror-rooms of contradiction and seeming hopelessness. Yet, the time arrives where we are, now and then, changed.

Good work; a very stalwart effort at putting truth to paper.

[Antonio Valentino]

I'm in love with your honesty. This was wonderful.

Don't ever change, a thing.
Antonio

[Hippy]

another great write your words always seem to amaze me

[deeps]

This is really awesome and brillant!
I enjoyed this write. The flow is wonderful.

[Coyote Poetry]

Poem is amazing. I only see my weaknesses when someone tells me. I like the flow and your story in the words. I believe the scar and bruises make us more special. A excellent poem.
Coyote

[Raef C. Boylan]

There's a great pace to this, really feels like we're tumbling through an inner monologue. I like how well this expresses the private, contradictory feelings we have towards ourselves as individuals: we feel ugly and flawed - but also wish someone would see us as something else, as "worth it".

Like others have said, the self-deprecating humour really makes this piece, with the little human details.

"I think Im worth the
midnight crazies" - this is a nice summary of a big deal [NB: Im --> I'm?]

Overall, a great piece. Welcome back.
Thanks for making me write a review again. I currently can't see what I'm typing because the review box jumps all over the place when I write more than 8 lines or something like that :-/

[AND IF ANYONE KNOWS HOW TO SORT THIS OUT, PLEASE TELL ME BECAUSE IT'S MAKING ME HATE COMING TO THE CAFE]

[cest la vie]

You are more than worth it.. You are IT..
the one, the only, incredible you..
such a good honest, smooth reading piece here.
Great job:-)

[C. Harter Amos]

Definitely worth it and then some! "Watching the butterfly".

[Narnie]

'bring a flashlight', haha, Amber - you are so spot on with your gentle self-effacing humour. Yep - you are worth it.