My Path

God has called me here to learn
Something I can't back home
At first I tried to get out of it
I tried to go in a different direction...
But God always gets his way.

I was excited when I left
New place,
New people,
New experiences.

I was scared,yes.
But I was open to it all
Usually I wouldn't be
But God helped me like I asked Him too

I enjoyed my time here so far
I went places
Shared laughes with strangers
Made friends
Helped each other out in anyway we could
Putting the past behind me and starting new

As the happiness started to sink in,
Problems arised.
I might not be able to stay?
How could that be?
I came all this way ...
to be rejected?
I was sad.
I felt safe here
I dont want to leave so soon.

Then the doubt set in.
I thought I was doing what God wanted me to do.
Now I feel like It may not be.
I know I need the information
If not here,
then where?

My feelings are mixed and torn.
I don't know what to do
Leave and run home to my loved ones
But then what?

It wouldn't get me anywhere to just quit.
I want to learn what I came here for.
It all depends on the meeting of the Deans.
I can't give up now that times are getting tough.
I will not cry when they turn me away
I will thank them for how long they let me stay
I will tell them it has confirmed that I need to be here
And I will try next year.


But It is not my decision to make
To Stay or go
Once again,
I have to wait.