Parting of Ways

I wanted to belong somewhere I do.
I wanted to belong somewhere with you.
Not just lost under the stars
or under the redwood trees.
Just the years were too short for me.
I wanted you always.
I wanted you now.
I've always wanted you with me.
Only God knows what the future will hold
and I hoped it held us together.
One thing I've always been sure of
Is the one thing I will never have.
You were my weakness
and my strength.
The one pair of lips that I was dying to taste.
A red string binds us.
You and me
Tanngled and worn but never broken
Though our future will part us
You will always be with me.

God warned me.
I'm happy,
If you are.
Strange as it might be,
I feel free.
You were my problem
- and that's where you shall remain.
I could never be what you wanted.
One thing I know for sure,
God didn't make me to be normal
And that's what you wanted.
I've tried.
I've failed.
Truth is,
I needed more.
I wanted more.
I knew there was never going to be more.
It is a parting of ways that I didn't expect
Though it feels like it's always been.
Just with the weight of you off my shoulders.
"I'm not scared anymore."
I whisper as I spread my wings.
"I'm free...
finally."