Zach

A poem from a girl to the boy who abandoned her. She still loves him, but he couldn't care less. He's had his fun.

You've dug so deep underneath my skin,
filling me with doubt from outside in
Just tell me what I'm supposed to do
When life's so dark without you
I miss you warmth, your voice, your smile
I'd wait forever, walk an endless mile
if only it meant I'd find myself back
in the arms of the lover that I now lack
When you turned around and walked away
I knew there was nothing I could say
to change your mind, to keep your here
With the one who loves you without fear
Though I try and try to find hapiness
Forcing it only gets me less and less
I'm hanging here with only hope
To keep me alive, to help me cope
I only wish that you would turn around
And help me turn from lost to found
Because without you I'm in misery
You were my heaven in hell, you see
Shackled by doubt, all I can do
is cry out and hope that you still love me, too
A dream so quickly turned to nightmare
And now it seems you hardly care
I want to reach out and grab your hand
But the miles between us are empty land
Void of life as I am void of joy
I am a pupet, your little toy
I'll wait for you until time finds end
And hope my broken heart you can mend
Until then I desperately cling
To what you call a passing fling
I'm tired of feeling so alone
But you cannot pick up the phone
Fear consumes you, threatens all
I wish'd I'd seen  this before the fall
Hearing your voice might save my life
But your words, I know, cut like a knife
You do not care, the love is gone
And I was just a silly pawn
Even still, I'll wait for you
There's nothing else I can do.
Unrequited love is all I've left to hold
onto. I wish that I could be so bold
to tell you to defend me, to be the knight
you promised to be, to stand and fight.
Every word you said to me
Keeps me from finally being free.
I still want you, am still in love
and I'll pray to the god above
to let me hold you one more time
And allow me this one sweet, sweet crime
I said I'd give my life to see you happy.
It's time to make good on that promise.

Author's Note

I'm really horrible with poetry. I wrote this while horribly depressed after my boyfriend of a year broke up with me to sleep with college girls. As I said, I'm not very good with poetry. At all. The last two lines aren't meant to rhyme, either.