The Girl Behind The Smile

statue self destructor

Broken alone and weak

I stand in the darkness, way home I seek

 

Only me, myself and this pen

I write my emotions and hide my sins

 

I strip down my lies

I remove my mask, my disguise

 

I shall no more wear that fake smile

That painful stupid painting life drew for the longest while

 

Only me, myself and this pain

Killing me slowly like acid rain

 

Too weak to even stand on my feet

Down on my knees, my tears increase my heat

 

The mask of strength I wore for long

May too long that removing it now seems so wrong

 

Only me, myself and this huge hole

Getting bigger everyday, it’s eating my soul

 

Bleeding tears, memories rush by

Of a house, once called home, my eyes dry

 

Replacing hot tears with drained blood and desire

To madly kill myself and burn the ashes with fire

 

Home sweet home, I cry to you

Come back to me or let me go to you

 

If that’s possible then I’d do it all

Now is the perfect time as I’m about to fall

 

Home sweet home, the place where love is born

Where laughter was created, the laughter now life had stolen

 

Turn the clock backwards so I can enjoy

Living the queen of my kingdom, not just another toy

 

Home sweet home, I plead for one last chance

I promise to be grateful, I will have a blast

 

Tell me how to stop screaming for you

Tell me how to stop dreaming of you

 

Show me the way, take my hand

Bring me back to my sanity, back to my mind

 

And so I take one last look before

I end my life, I don’t want some more

 

Because now you are gone I have no reason to stay

So I loose the rope and waist my life away …

Reviews

[beautiful dreamer]

i'm sorry :( it is a beautiful poem