Them Changes

Spiritual Struggles. I don't even consider this a poem, just me venting.

I can tell something's wrong by the way that I act.

Like to do what I want.

But there's no fun in that.

Good feelings fade and regret sets in

And maybe I feel bad because I know it is sin.

Sometimes I think I have a weakness for men.

A few soft words.

A touch.

The feel of skin on skin.

But they only seem to show me

Again and again

Putting my heart in nights of passion 

Will never make me content.

I'm contemplating changes that I might have to make.

Take life more serious 'cause there's a lot at stake.

Be the woman I want to see.

Have all my family be proud of me.

Act as saved as I claim to be.

Get a better understanding.

Get closer to God.

But I can't do that if I ain't working harder

To see the results

Afar and abroad

So that when others meet me

They know I'm with God.

Author's Note

Ignore grammar, thank you for reading!

Reviews

[barleygirl]

You completely underestimate yourself, calling this a simple mind dump. This is a well-crafted poem, whether you want to see that or not! I get rhyme & rhythm all the way thru, as well as an intense internal discussion that’s so recognizable! The best writers are those who have mastered self-honesty & this is singing with it. Even tho this may seem like a dreary day-to-day struggle, in revealing it the way you do, it’s an inspiration for all of us who struggle with our demons. We all want to walk our talk & this is a beautifully honest way to show how bumpy the road can be (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Fanicia E.]

Thank you so much Margie. I appreciate you taking the time to read my work, your honesty, and your wisdom.

[Donna]

This is very inspirational and so nicely written! Great job!

[Fanicia E.]

As always, thank you Donna!

[Donna]

Your welcome! ☺

[Effie]

You have written some of my very thoughts. I enjoyed reading your words and find hope in them. You have expressed yourself very well. Thank you!

[Fanicia E.]

Thank you! I really appreciate you reading this, and i'm glad you could relate and that my words gave you hope :)

[Effie]

You are very welcome.