Journal/Poem/Letter to Me. Whatever.. It Is for Me..

A letter to me

I am so sorry,  you were born.

To a life.

Of gloom and doom.

Were your natural parents.

Both had problems

even

Before you were

every born.

I am,  so very sorry

you felt

more the parent.

To them

Than Them

actually

Being the parent to you.

How you constantly

have to deal

With so many conflicts

And hysteria

distressing

unbearable

hellish

prolong periods of anxiety

and stress-filled tragedies

of

every day dramas

filling  years

upon years

Of you

just wanting

to die

and be

gone forever.

But more so

away from them

both.

for good.

And to just

to have

a little peace

and to have

and simply

to be just

you.

But

I am ever

so gratefully

and relieved.

You decided to

stay on this

this planet

called earth

and with them.

And you

even

tried your very best

 to help them.

As well

as try to put them.

On the straight

and narrow

a very long slow road

to recover

for themselves.

But sadly it was

far too late for

them both.

They passed

away.

Their own demons

where to strong

to overcome

for them alone.

Your efforts.

 I admire

And I  respect

your commitment

to try

to help them both.

To get better

for basically themselves

And hopefully long

term that included

for you also

of course.

But it never

did prevail.

But life did go on.

And you did survive

Alone in this world

for a very long time.

Still having troubles

and being

homeless, Let is  alone

meeting a guy and married

him

and Living even abroad.

That failed and you

came back home.

And was homeless

again. And you had

your obstacles again.

But you never gave in.

I admire your determination.

You love and never-ending hope and faith

to keep going on

no matter what.

And thinking to yourself

inside.

"F**k it.  I have had far worse.

So,  balls to it. Just keep on going on".

And you just do!

Just that.

Keep on going.

Even thou,

It is never

easy for you

at times.

Even until

this very day!

I love you

and thank

God for you

but more so

simply you

being you. Dee xxx

.

Reviews

[sette]

there is the feeling of more than empathy is what i want to tell you dee, i admire your courage, your resilience and most of all your fortitude in life... you are one remarkable person to go through these things and yet you manage to reflect on your self and how you try to survive, you are on the road or process of healing, i want to send you a healing thought just like what chris had sent me. be strong always

[Onlyme]

Oh Sette, you make me cry. Thank you and bless you for your kindness towards me. Hugs.