Loneliness

Have you ever heard that say?

"Being in a crowded room can be the most

lonely place in the world"

I can really relate to that one.

Feeling so lonely. I just want to

disappear and be no more.

Just to turn to dust. And be

gone.

Having no one to turn to.

Talk with. Or even be with

or care about me ever.

Or give me comfort

let alone anyone just to hold my hand.

That is the most terrifying and saddest feelings

in the world. To experience and have loneliness and being

alone on top.

It does not matter if you're in that crowded room

or live alone and never mix with anyone at all every

the single day of the week.

They both can kill a person.

Spare a thought for a lonely neighbour or co-worker

who lives alone. And is shy or reserved. Or simply

has no one who cares more so. Where they are alive

or dead.

Reviews

[Jerrytsuseer]

I know that feeling of being in a crowded room, and still being alone.
I bring it on myself for the most part I realize. At 63, in my life
Experience, I've been betrayed, cheated, hurt and deeply wounded
By people I've opened up to, so that now I find it hard to do so.
Much of it is a feeling of superiority, of 'why should I go slumming" like this?
"They can never understand or relate to me, so why bother?" is many
Times my feeling.
Your poem evokes and definite feeling, and echo within me that isn't"
Altogether pleasant Dee, but that just shows how well you wrote it.

[Onlyme]

To me that is very sad Jerry, That you feel that way. As you have been betrayed, cheated and hurt deeply by others. And think, why bother with anyone anymore. But I can understand why you feel that way thou. But closing yourself of to others. Is just going to make you more lonely in the long run. I do believe us humans need each other. But also quality time alone as well. But too much of both. It not good for anyone. It's finding a happy balance.

[Jerrytsuseer]

"A man who is lonely when he is alone, is in very poor company"
I spend almost all my time alone, but for the most part am not lonely.
Bored, yes, but not lonely.
I live in a small, Go'vt subsidized supportive housing facility. Most of the people here do not have vehicles, and rely on Public Transport.
Since the little "non-disability" income I make is by playing music for Senior's in Retirement/Assisted living/Nursing home facilities, public transport is not an option.
So I give rides to my neighbors, to the grocery store, and if they go to the Kroger where I shop, I don't ask for gas money; they use my Kroger card, I get their gas points. win win for both parties.
In this way, I get out, I'm not alone (for a couple of hours when I play, or a few minutes when going to the store)
Playing music is the light of my life and my joy, seeing the smiles and toes tapping and laughter, goes a long way to alleviating loneliness.

[Jerrytsuseer]

PS...I've been playing music for 52 yrs...yes that's right. I'm an old fart. ☺

[Onlyme]

Jerry, your not an old fart, are a good man, with a good heart and help others like your neighvours and they you back. Glad you have your music that is womderful to enjoy. hugs Dee.

[Jerrytsuseer]

I don't know if this is allowed or if it will show here.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QmomGmuhMCE

[Jerrytsuseer]

That's a link to a live video of one of my most recent performances

[Amy]

I love your poem it has so much sadness within it that I can feel the pain you felt while writing this. I hope things will get better for you, and if you ever feel lonely, you can talk to me if you want :)

[Onlyme]

Thank you Amy, glad you liked the poem. Bless you sweetheart.