Half-Mast

Rest in peace, Jay.

3:37 am 

i woke in a cold sweat

tangled up in my bed 

disoriented

"your cousin hung himself"

and a long silence

and a long hug

"i'm going to the hospital

i won't be back by morning"

and it took him

maybe an hour to leave

but it 

felt.

like.

forever.

4:41 am

my thoughts were loud

and i couldn't shut them out

so i went for a drive 

and he begged me to be safe

so i swore on my life 

5:10 am

i saw people in their cars

and wondered if they were like me

if they couldn't sleep 

if they regretted their closed mouths 

if they only wanted out 

5:27 am

i found a park with a flag

and i lowered it to half-mast

and i wrote a note for the sorry b*****d

who's up there next

"my cousin hung himself last night

God bless America"

Author's Note

Never be afraid to say I love you. Never.
Rest in peace, Jay. I hope you got your way out.

Reviews

[Relic]

This is very moving. I'm sorry about your cousin.
You are very good.

[Brook]

Thank you, I appreciate it.

[Relic]

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[YouoweYoupay]

This is horrible. The last lines made my hair stand. I don't know what else to say. I'm sorry. I'm sorry the world isn't as pleasant as it seems in Hollywood products. Be safe. R.I.P, Jay.

[Brook]

Thanks for your comment. It does mean a lot, especially since today marks a month since his passing.

[Alvin L. Kathembe]

Rest in peace, Jay.