You're Still There

When it's all over
The words don't fade away
They keep replaying in my head
Over and over and over
Until it aches
There's too many memories
My mind can't take any more
It hurts like someone reaching into your chest
Pulling on whatever they can reach first
It aches
So I try to block out all the thoughts
Turn the music up higher
Until I can't hear myself think
But you're still there
I may become happy
I may believe that a world without you is a better one
But deep down
You're still there
You still torment my mind
I still miss you
I wish you would go away
I wish you would come back
I wish you would break this silence
I wish you would leave forever
I wish everything I feel would disappear
Or that I could sleep for weeks
Until it goes away
I see little things that remind me of you
In songs
In pictures
You're everywhere
But you're not here
I regret it all
But I regret nothing
You never go away
You're still there
No matter how much I smile
Or laugh
Or cry
You're still there
Like a permanent name inked in my head
You won't go away
You hurt me
And I knew you would
But no matter what I do to forget you
You're still there