Wonder

[050317_1am] overthinking. desesperating. worrying.

There it goes again

The good old sadness

making its way inside the deepest places in my head

 

I’m wondering if my twisted and saddening thoughts will ever shut down, and stop making me look like a clown

 

I’m wondering if I will ever be able to maintain a stable mindset, and stop getting extremely upset

 

I’m wondering if the day will ever come where I won’t feel like dying,

fall asleep while crying

 

I’m wondering if I will ever feel alive, trying to survive

with this manipulated mankind

I wonder…

I wonder too much

I will never stop wondering

I will die wondering about

all the alternatives

all the happiness

all the opportunities

all the peace

all the freedom

Author's Note

I apologise for not being word-perfect in English and for grammatical mistakes if you detect any.
Thank you for reading/reviewing/rating. x