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Visions

Visions

A Poem by pinhead07

My mind's blank, for that I thank the lord.
At least for now.
I can't keep her out of my head.
Even though she never loved me, it was all a prank.

I feel like I'm already dead.
Just my spirit roams.
Nowhere here, do I feel at home.

I'm in my room that is covered in puke, urine.
Everyone knows I'm a kook.

I snort some more powder.
Turn the music louder.

While everyone is afraid of being nuked.
While an illness spreads through the world.
I am being visited by her spook.

"You thought you'd forget me, huh?!?"
"I will never let you forget! Loser!"
I shake my head.
Till it disappears.
Why can't I forget?!?

I drink some beer, try to cheer myself up.
My responsibilities I just can't handle.
I want nothing to do with the world.
Running out of drugs, that's my worst fear.

I can hear her singing.
I shake my head.
It is just a mere illusion, damn it!

All I've gotten from the world are sneers.
I burn myself with the cigarette I'm smoking.
That jolts me awake.

Some more powder, and I'm drifting.
I rehear her singing.
"Loser, you can't get rid of me!"
I shake my head.

I could've been somebody. could've had a career.
She sits next to me.
"You've always been a damned idiot!"
She laughs.
I shake my head.

I smoke more, add to the pile of vomit.
"That's it, let it all out, then smoke, snort some more!"

I want to get better, lord!
I make a hushed prayer.
The lord is not unaware.

© 2020 pinhead07


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Drugs never end but, there is a time when they do. And that is the time when you choose to let em go and get back on a healthy lifestyle. It's not impossible. What you gotta do is discipline yourself and that's it.
I know it's hard but it's never too hard. You just got to begin.

Posted 3 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

pinhead07

3 Years Ago

Thanks for the review! :))That's true. It never ends well no matter how many times one tells one's s.. read more



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What a place you find yourself in, but you don't have to stay there. It might be a slow climb, it might be a long climb, it will take huge courage, but it will be worth the pain and effort. Mountains are there to climb. One foot at a time.

Chris.

Posted 3 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

pinhead07

3 Years Ago

Thank you for the advice ma'am, I started doing drugs when I was just a teenager, after a relationsh.. read more
Chris Shaw

3 Years Ago

Well done you. Keep up the good work. It:s worth it.
This is a unique write, I echo intothemilkyway's review...

Posted 3 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

pinhead07

3 Years Ago

Thank you for the review! It all started with cigarettes, then hashish then heroin but I’ve been o.. read more
Drugs never end but, there is a time when they do. And that is the time when you choose to let em go and get back on a healthy lifestyle. It's not impossible. What you gotta do is discipline yourself and that's it.
I know it's hard but it's never too hard. You just got to begin.

Posted 3 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

pinhead07

3 Years Ago

Thanks for the review! :))That's true. It never ends well no matter how many times one tells one's s.. read more

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