Smiles

Time alone wears me down.

Maybe I appear fine when I clown around.

Don't help; people that frown.

Everyday I have a breakdown.

Desperately, the damn feelings I  try to drown.

I just plaster on a grin.

Getting people down is a sin.

A smile on my face no matter what.

Hope they don't look at my wrist, see the cut.

To show confidence, a little I strut.

I look normal, somewhat.

I burn from the inside.

My brain is fried.

My heart cries.

This side I hide.

I fear I might crack.

My heart will go black.

Reviews

[Just Kim]

love the last two stanza's i feel that way from time to time...

[pinhead07]

I'm glad you like them! Thank you for the review! :)))

[Intothemilkyway]

it's hard to smile when you are hurting inside. I know that very well.
Pretending and looking like you are fine but no one knows how deeply you are hurt.
Ah, what our hearts hold inside, all this pain. Only we can understand it.

[pinhead07]

Thank you for the review! :)
Indeed it is. As far as I’ve observed, everyone pretends to be fine most of the time, they struggle to keep a smile on their faces. True delight rarely comes by. Life gets to everybody, we all suffer, Life leaves us scarred. I'm not sure whether people heal or get numb. I'd like to think they heal. :))

[Intothemilkyway]

I think we do heal cause if not then we wouldn't be able to move forward. Some early some fast but we do.