Lifeless

Somehow, I live on.

Withdrawn.

Sitting idle.

Watching the smoke spiral.

Waiting for pleasure's arrival.

Pleasure does arrive.

Into a sea of warmth, I've dived.

Years of solitude.

Years of drug abuse.

Have me all confused.

I remember all the sermons.

According to them, I'm a damn vermin.

What if I have been misled by the serpent?

I am fighting voices in the silence.

Hearing sirens.

I am dead. A lifeless body.

I used to be somebody.

One day at a time.

Says my mind.

Reviews

[Just Kim]

That is all one can do, take it day by day, well said

[pinhead07]

Thank you! :)))

[Intothemilkyway]

Love th 2-3 stanzas they are perfect. All these ifs and whys and still a long time to figure things out.
But it's never too late.

[pinhead07]

Thank you for the kind review! :)))
Indeed, it is never too late. :))

[likesgreeneggsandham]

This is searing! As i mentioned previously I too have grappled with addiction. It is a slippery serpent as you describe that plays snakes and ladders with your mind. Well done on being able to edge nearer and nearer to the truth of things.

[pinhead07]

Thank you so much for the review! :)))

And to think people don’t think weed is harmful enough, it basically gave me depression and anxiety after I spent years cooped up in my room smoking away. A bit of psychosis. I still sometimes struggle with auditory hallucinations. Turned me into an agoraphobic and not to mention I couldn’t achieve anything while I was stoned.

I tried smoking a year or two ago, after being off of it for so long, all I got from it was a really bad anxious trip where I felt I wasn’t in control of anything. Good riddance, I say.

[Chris Shaw]

I am liking your new style. Shorter poems, broken into smaller bite size stanzas. So much easier to read. Your mind is wise, one day at a time. You are still somebody, always have been.

Chris

[pinhead07]

Thank you so much for the kind words! :))) I really appreciate it! :)))