discovery

i sing memories
and kiss blossoms
i climb the tallest of talls
and fall down
to remember why it was
i climbed in the first place
forgive me,
mother,
i am not who you are
i am instead
everything i hated to be
and in perfect realism
i am realizing
why i wanted to be that
please listen
please hold me tight
i am only what i can bear to be
as i am only what you need
can you tell?
can you hear what i am?
can you know what
it is
that i am trying to be?
it is just so difficult
such a hard sort of thing
to realize that i am
in fact
what you wanted all along
and in breaths of whispers
in sullen looks back
realizing who we were once
and who we could never be
you birthed my image
my signature
and told me what i would
could
become
so hear me now
you have given me life
and i must repay you
for all you have cursed me with