Dear Mr. RoseA Poem by Madeleine CelesteSome old letter, that has words in my eyes and my skin and my hair and every little mishap. Also, Mr. Rose, if you're the reason for my prominent double-chin I will smack you
Dear Mr. Stephen/Steven/Stefen (oh, however you spell it) Rose,
I don't know what to tell you- Well, that's not true, I'd be lying if I didn't have anything I wanted to say. I'd be delusional if there was nothing I could say. I could say I hated you for leaving, For being such an absence and such a mystery When you are part of me I'm fully aware that my eyes don't look like his, or hers, or anyone's, But how can I be sure they're not yours? I got her hands and her cooking and her laugh And what would you know anything about any of those things? I don't know if what you made caused you to leave But she might have gotten the blue in her eyes from you And maybe I'm so much like you I don't know it, Maybe we're complete strangers and meant to be that way. I could tell you I've been waiting to talk to you Say you've been on my mind all the time That I want to know you Say that you should fill the post you abandoned But none of it's really true, I suppose. In all honesty, I don't know what I would say. I'm terribly awkward and I don't even know if it's your fault. If it's your fault you left. Maybe you're some profusion of cliches, A drug-riddled mind and a loveless relationship, Or an endless yearning that was forbidden, But all I've learned to hope for is some idiot Who made the wrong choice at the wrong time And handled it poorly But the thing is, you didn't leave a mess behind I think. I mean, I'm probably too late to witness any hypothetical disasters That might've occurred But you didn't leave any lives in shambles And things... got better Because you were gone or because of anything, any coincidence And, it might hurt you like it hurt us or maybe you won't care, But everything you left is gone now. You can't come back and bring it back, Nobody can. None of us are that strong. It's not your fault, though, Even though you probably don't care if it is. You might as well be heartless, But that doesn't numb the small ache I get whenever I think of you. So, if you've got the time, Maybe I can find you. If you find me. And if you're even out there Well... I'm out there too, Writing letters to the man that has no reason to think of me. Who probably doesn't even know I exist. If any of it matters, in the end. I'm happy, but you're still there, in all of your not-being-there. I've got nothing else to say that couldn't wait, I guess, So... for the first time, Hello. Sincerely, Madeleine Celeste Magnant (or, Koolkin-Magnant) Your biological grandchild.
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Added on March 11, 2018 Last Updated on March 11, 2018 AuthorMadeleine CelesteAbout"I'm in love, I'm in love, and I don't care who knows it!" -Buddy The Elf, 2003 Hopeless romantic (as you've probably figured out by now).None of my poems will probably make sense, and if you're no.. more..Writing
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