Detached

A Poem by Pranali

i search for those eyes
beautiful not wise
i see that smile
which connects my heart to thine
i want to touch that ruffled hair
falling lightly on your forehead
i really want to say please be mine

this poem i am writing
for the savior of my life
that prince i have yet not found
on this earth under this sky
i wait for him to take me away
away from this pain
to the gate of heaven
rainbow oriented

one day this friend did come
swiftly in my life
i started believing in myself yet another time
from the nascent feeling of friendship
the bud blossomed into love
i was attached to him
in a way i was with no other

we had those days of bliss
The spring of joy brought by love
soon gave to tears of a heart torn
no broken promises and no lies
the only reason behind
was my insecure mind

they say when you love
you give the power of breaking your heart
yet trusting them to not
i have this history of broken heart
which i carry like a proud mascot
i give way to tears at slight raised voice
to the helpful criticism
i turn down all ties
with the minute feeling
that i hurt someone
i hate myself and surrender
to the painful wrath of guilt's burden

i have people who love me
respect me and adore me
they look up to me for advice
i feel ashamed to show my vice
Yet again the second time
i find a person sublime
who could take away my fears
By his mere trusting eyes
and make me feel worthy
with his innocent way of looking at this life

this time the feelings stayed nascent
in every way i stayed complaisant
i wasn't aware of his effect on me
his presence was an unconscious energy
radiant in my life
to face any challenge now i needn't strife
but like the thunderbolt strike
this dawned on me today
with your any action my life could astray
insecure mind started its plot
slowly it showcased your every fault
my words turned unkind; an emotional assault
your dislike for me i tried to exalt

This charade went on
and my mind won
poetically i bid you goodbye
you are free to fly my last guy
my heart is forever latched
oh dear! now i am detached....