Life of lies…

Some nights I wish I could go back in life. Not to change things, just to feel a couple of things twice.

Days and months pass by

Proving that my life is just a lie..

There is no sunshine..

Though I keep telling myself that I am fine..

No memories worth recalling

Slowly with the night, loneliness keeps crawling..

 

I am not always like this

My mornings are gay and bliss..

Surrounded by many

My days are energetic and shiny

you might even get jealous

And at times even turn rebellious..

Thinking about me

How can she be so happy and glee..

 

Days so bright and nights so lonely

Twisting in my dry sheets trying to get cozy..

Like a candle I light peoples lives

And all I get in-return is stabbed by knives..

If you have a problem, I will lend my ear

And makes all your worries to disappear..

 

Though I am constantly surrounded by many

Why do I feel so heavy???

So many to talk to, but none to listen….

All my emotions are deeply hidden

My heart cries silently each day

Not knowing what it needs to make it gay..

 

At-times my feelings roll down my eyes

Realizing that emptiness is just me in disguise…

Don’t I matter, will I matter?

These are somethings I don’t have an answer..

There is nothing which can numb the pain

Yet these emotions are hard for me to explain

Days and months pass by….

Proving that my life is just a lie…