gripping death

im full of anger and sorrow its just words

inside my beating heart the pain moans

give me life or at least a reason

deaths grip wrapped tightly around my throat

i gasp for air but you pay no mind

i wish it was different 

i wish we could be the way we used to be

the pain begins to grow inside my ever dying heart 

ill take one last trade in pain 

five shots left in this gun...

you left it here to test my stupidity

to test my will

to test my love...

smoke rises from the barrel of the gun as it drops to the floor

my will lasts past death

my love surpasses time

and my stupidity is for you to judge

you found sanctuary in the bottom of a bottle

i found release down the barrel of a gun

the rubies pool on the floor

the lights outside, red and blue

no more pain

no more anger 

in life i felt no love

in death i hold you for eternity