A Cry For Help

Depression isn't anything new to me

It's been there for years on end

My anxiety is like cyanide

It's killing me in minutes

I can't escape from it

No matter how many pills I take

Hooked on overdosing

I know I shouldn't

But it makes me feel serene

It's a never-ending cycle 

I'll try to get help

But I can't make any promises

My demons dangle freedom in front of me

I run for the escape

But it's just another dark void I fall into

I know I need help

I'm just scared of the recovery

I can't live without it

This can't be fixed

I take every chance I get

Getting closer to death each passing day

But that's okay

This is just my reality 

I want to move forward

But I force myself to take the pills again 

My problems keep growing

I'm no longer able to contain everything together

Everything shatters into little pieces

Corrupted by my anguish

Reviews

[Rye]

I used to crash out on cold meds, i didn't know how addictive they were, talk to someone get some help. Little steps are the best way to come off of it. Day by day or you will go back...

[Pumpkin Girl]

Thank you so much Ryanna

[Paul Bell]

The good thing about this is. you know you can move forward. Depression is a symptom that will come and go. But you know that. Little steps at a time, don't over complicate things. Writing things down as you've done is a good start. Set yourself targets that are achievable. Keeping fit is great for depression.

[Pumpkin Girl]

Thank you very much Paul

[Onlyme]

Sweetheart do not suffer alone. We are listening. And you need to talk about how you are feeling to some professional helpers. Like Samaritans in your area, they are 24/7 numbers. And private and personal. Or contact your doctor or go to the hospital and tell them how you are feeling. Writing down like you are doing will help get it out. But please don't do anything silly. As you will affect everyone else who is left. And that will hurt them badly. And they might never get over it either. They need you alive and healthy. There is no shame or embarrassment in admitting you need help. I did when I was your younger. Got the help I needed. And I was living in another country at the time. Do it for you. Get the help you so badly need and desire. Thinking of you. Dawn. You are not alone. Honest others do care.

[Pumpkin Girl]

Thank you so much this means a lot to me I am going planning on getting help

[Onlyme]

glad to hear it. Keep your chin up sweetheart. And know others do really care. hugs. Dawn.

[Pumpkin Girl]

Thank you so very much Dawn

[Gee]

It's troubling reading writing on the subject of depression and suicide as a good friend daughter ended her life a year ago by overdosing. The fallout from that incident is truly devastating and will scar the lives of many for years to come.
There is plenty of medical help out there and charitable organisations who will listen, advise 24/7

[Pumpkin Girl]

Thank you so very much