Unclaimed

Push, my heart says.

Fight on.

But I am sewn to the ground you have fallen to.

Live, I scream. 

Take risks, I yell.

But my wrists are jailed 

To the doors of my memories.

How do I move on/ go on?

How do I love another, when every

Curve aches of the emptiness of you

And every touch echoes with the absense of you?

How do I stop what I never consciously began?

‘Not loving you is like not breathing,’ ‘Liam says. 

And I feel the same way. I feel 

I only feel

With you. And without you

There is a terribleness to the twist

Of the leaves

And an eeriness

To the whisperings of the branches.

Without you I am without

Myself. Suffocating on a breath too long held

In a world where I am going under

Muffled cries and hollowed grazings

Bubbles, and colours, and darkness

I am drowning in the depth of your absence

In the suddenness of your stare

Imagined, as I kiss another

Imagined, as I love another

And with time I understand:

You have my heart, I have my body.

And without you I am 

Nobody’s.

Author's Note

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