Beau Vide

I have never felt a reason 

To abandon anyone 

I even walked them out 

When they played their cards all wrong

I can feel the tension in your gut, 

I know that you will go. 

I've seen it in your spite, 

Your anger, 

Overflow.

I don't hold anything against you 

For my poor heart is uncontrolled

And it will always chase you

I am trapped inside your soul. 

I don't know how I see you 

I want to cry when I'm awake 

I can't help but always feel like 

Loving blind is just a waste

And it doesn't really matter 

The heart, it wants, and it consumes

But mine will eat the oxygen 

Until there is nothing in the room 

I am filled with beau vide

The reaper robbed what I had left

And when I fell down to the bottom 

I had hoped you'd have my side

But I wish I could forget

But beau vide, beau vide, 

I can never once confide. 

I can't deal with the pressure

You seem to hurt when I'm away

I will make the longing stop 

I am leaving here today. 

I can't deal with your sadness

I will try to block it out 

And when you talk I will not listen,

I will not make a sound.

I will carry out in silence,

I will drag the measures out. 

I will rest on a repeat,

drive the looker mad,

I will not read the poems that you left for me to have. 

I will not tie the letters,

Of each word you spoke to me, 

around my tongue, around my guts,

Like it feels to you from me. 

I will not show my compassion,

This is all just one big game.  

I will tear apart the roots

Of every last grass blade

and when I am done with you 

Your whole scenery will change.

No one ever tells you, 

That love will rape you,

Steal your time. 

Or that you would go on for forever just a' wishin' you were mine. 

You would drag my wounded body, 

O'er your shoulder through the snow,

But the same chivalry you've held,

You will surely never know. 

And also, the things I've told you 

Weren't honesty, or sane

Nobody ever tells you 

After love,

Life will never be the same.