Fear Wins This One

Fear screamed me back to you

The threats, the nightmares, the pain

Numbers blinking

Terror 

Quick, thoughtless knocks on the white door

Horror

The snappy, profane words you use to strike me

And down I fall into my own waves and drown

Now you won't leave my head

So is this what you wanted? 

The fear of you to wash me away? To wash away who I could be?

You've won. I am afraid of all that you are and all that you have and ever will do.