The realization of what could've been

It hurt more to realize

Our friendship

Our once was

The late nights

Where I could tell you

Anything

The way you hugged me

And I felt like

You were my glue

The love I had for you

That I mistook

As physical

Was never that

The tears I cry

For you

Are silent

And often

They fall knowing

You will never

Be there to

Wipe them

Away

Again

Our wounds

Were so deep

Almost as if

Cut with

The same knife

You were all I needed

At that point

In that chapter

And it hurts

My heart still hurts

With the thought

Of never being able to hug you

Or hold your hand

With the thought that you

Won’t ever look at me

Like you thought I

Wasn’t watching

Knowing our smiles

That came so naturally

The laughter that

Never ended

When we were together

You knew me

I let you in

I let you see my

Scars

I let you

Become someone

I felt safe with

Someone I

Felt whole with

You made me

Feel invincible

Made me

Feel alive

In a way

No man ever had

It hurts me to

Think you don’t

Shed a tear or

Lose sleep

Over me

Over the beauty of

What we were

Or the magic

Of what

Could’ve

been