Forever Yours

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Forever Yours

thunder shakes loose the lightning 

rips apart roiling dark clouds and 

the rain pours down

the sagacity of her apophony astounds the most astute

her leisure hours spent to weary dowers 

they fall leaden at her feet

she skewers them on pikes

"Can't we get back the way it was? ... "  she said.

i couldn't speak

i was dumbed numb

it was the words

it was the presentation

it was all of that on steroid replay

hitting the mark ... constricting chest to throat

obstructing

                             words                                worlds

haven't the heart to toss it

perhaps just sell my lot and stock 

leave.

her breast wears  hard rocks

she filed away her pounding nails

while flailing at her skillet

drawing them out red hot and ready

her breath came rasped and rattled

and cursed her conscience battled

my defense badly mounted

cut short and pronounced

me

                                                                     helplessly guilty

helplessly guilty

You gave me everything then

You gave me no ...................thing

                                                                     the no thing was more

and you wanted me to follow you  .................. a real something 

some                            thing

tuning my ear with your bending strings and 

cry                                     cry                              cry

wanting money, your fame how you

try                                      try                              try

what about good bye?

04/06/2020

E.

Author's Note

Reviews

[Chris Shaw]

These lines speak to me of how people can find themselves on different pathways within a relationship. It sort of creeps up over you and then you realise that the person you thought you were perfectly in tune with has already left the building in spirit if not in body. It is a painful experience and I can feel the conflict here. You are worlds apart. Their values are not yours. When it gets to that stage, goodbye is the best solution. You can not live a lie. I felt the storm Mr E. It was raging, it was torture.

Chris

[Einstein Noodle]

thank you Chris :)

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

I read a very demanding and consuming relationship in your words. Forever Yours seems a mockery in the thunder, lightning and rippling dark clouds of combat. A partner that's selfish, self-serving and manipulative can wreck a havoc on the conscience and one cant be blamed for looking for the nearest exit. Better the door than the red hot skillet! This kitty understands!
A dramatic and lively poem on relationships, dear E! Appreciated every bit!

[Einstein Noodle]

ahahahah you got it dahlink Kat! from here to eternity :) love on ya and thanks so much for taking time and reading with connection .. luv and peace :)
E.

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

And from eternity to back!! :) Much love sent to you too and wrapped in a big, extra special kind of hug!
Stay safe and keep writing always, my dear friend.

[Einstein Noodle]

[wordman]

touching words and feelings,great layout to make you feel it as well,liked the song

[Einstein Noodle]

thanks for reviewing sir .. always .. and glad you like the song!! i had not heard of the group before ... found them in my search for something to post with the poem ... blessing on ya brother .. safe and safety ;)
E.

[wordman]

you`re welcome and thank you

[Great Aunt Astri]

An amazing poem, Einstein. Delicious combinations of words, and sentiments that sear into the heart! I enjoyed reading this.

[Einstein Noodle]

thanks so much for taking time Auntie ... and again...glad you are back :) i appreciate your reviewing and encouraging reaction .. stay healthy girl! :)
E.

[Great Aunt Astri]

Thank you Einstein

[Eilis]

It sounds as if both parties have their faults in this situation, but as with any story, we come to our understanding of the thing through the heart and eyes of one. And so our sympathies, in many ways, automatically rest with the speaker.

I feel like that’s partly the point. Like we are meant to take sides as this is a fight and the speaker needs back up. The picture suggests right off that ‘she’ is the powerful party. Her tongue and mind hold some serious sway and he is trying to find his footing among the tangled vines of it all.

My first impression was this was the poet/muse relationship. The sometimes sadistic nature of the creative force within us that seems to play with our minds when we seek some kind of creative control over them. Those middle of the night tingles that disappear if we don’t heed their siren call. Those long stretches of creative power withheld with no good explanation. The battle within that feels quite deliberately waged when we seek and seek expression but cannot seem to access it no matter how we try. I still feel this force within the poem, but there is definitely something more tangible within. Perhaps a person that embodies the sense of creative freedom who understands their power over another and uses it carelessly.

The angst is definitely there regardless of the source. The strength of feeling and its hold reigns. A stirring poem, E. Much enjoyed the reading.

[Einstein Noodle]

what an in depth review!! ... i am so grateful for it Eilis ... you truly felt it all .. i had not thought of the muse but love that interpretation .. certainly could be .. as we know her uncompromising whims ;)) and yes .. the speaker is most assuredly the protagonist ... truly i am humbled and gratified to have someone read the way you have ... glad you enjoyed ..
E.

[olla]

and the thunder rolls.. well done Mr. Noodle.. my heart was in my throat by the end.. well done indeed..

[Einstein Noodle]

thanks olla! i feel truly gratified this affected you so ... some poems are closer to the bone than others eh!? this is one of those for me ;) thanks so much for taking time and for your kind, encouraging review!

[Ruth]

This is soul wrenching, I consider such a battle sometimes harder to engage in then to let go of. Conflicting needs and wants, want being different to need. A tragedy in some ways, the release is never without a bargaining of sorts and is seldom pain free...superb piece and I love the presentation as much as the feel of the words :)

[Einstein Noodle]

thanks so much for engaging in this poem, Ruth ;) i think you felt and hit all the main points ... lots of tensions in life and like you say the release can be tragic ... a certain payment demanded .. love your take on this .. thanks so much

[Ruth]

Most welcome and my pleasure :)

[KWP]

The only constant in life is change - we too, we humans change daily, we may think we don't but surely we do. a struggle to keep the flame burning in exactly the same way will never be, and who would want it to be, for, what would we learn from that? The struggles allow us to go within and assess, hopefully remerge with even more loving kindness.

Life is a rollercaster. I heard a quote today 'a safe life is the most dangerous of all' this truly resonates with me.

Nice writing E - the struggle is real here X

[Einstein Noodle]

https://youtu.be/VW2ebN3PWT0
be sure to raise your arms going over the crest my friend :))))))))))))))
always a treat to have your visits to read and review KW... i so agree .. we are fluid in all things .. our "realities" in constant flux ... the ride a miracle ... yes .. i suppose the situation in "Forever Yours" might easily press one to an inner life ... not sure in this case how healthy that would be however :} love your stuff ma'am .. always appreciate your time and thoughts .. a struggle ... yes! for real

[Lydia Shutter]

It will never cease to amaze me how two people who married when they were crazy in love can turn into two people who are polar opposites and can't stand to be together. It takes a long time to realize and more time to accept. There is a lot of sensual energy in your words...and a lot of regret too. Wow, quite the powerful story told here. Lydi**

[Einstein Noodle]

so happy you feel this poem so fully ... thanks so much for taking time Lydi! peace and love!
E.

[Neville]

you are the master of your own form Gene and tho many strive to emulate ya, including me.. I fear that a poor and un numbered runner up is all we are destined to be... we do however remain 'Forever Yours'

In the great meantime tho, stay safe and well :))))

[Einstein Noodle]

damn Nev! you humble me for sure ... and i do appreciate the encouragement and kind review .. raw emotion helped a lot with this one good man ... top o' the mahrnin' ... and the rest of the day as well ... love, peace and health my friend!
E.

[Neville]

Back at ya Gene, BIG TIME and true :)))

Neville

[.]

This reads like a slanging match between two enraged souls; lightning, thunder, rain, claws sharpened and bared, words flung like knives....the associated bodily responses to the heat of the battle, the tears and accusations; all leading to the final line of resignation. It's quite a heavy and dramatic write, dear E. Unfortunately this heaviness is grounded in realism and for many at the end of their relationship rope this is the reality. Sometimes its best to say that goodbye before more damage is done. I enjoyed the write and that picture is quite fascinating. Anyone in particular? A hard hitting poem.

[Einstein Noodle]

thanks so much for engaging this poem with such insight and sensitivity ... you hit the whole of it ;) so much damage can be and is done between people .. i agree .. that final goodbye is difficult but necessary in this poem anyway .. but not done :) ..... "..anyone particular?" ... born of experience somewhere along the way i suppose ..like all poetry is i think ;))))
E.