Caraphernelia

(n.) A broken heart disease that occurs whenever someone leaves you, but leaves there things behind. Inspired by Caraphernelia by Pierce The Veil

When the door slammed shut,
I crumpled to the floor.
We spoke that last goodbye.
You and I were no more.

Am I crazy or insane,
thinking about the rain,
and how it seems so beautiful,
with the way it illustrates my pain.

I press my hand to my window,
and watch it fall down.
I slide open the glass and feel the drops,
wishing that in them I could drown.

I climb to the roof top,
and feel the rain on my head.
Realizing that if I tried,
in one leap I could be dead.

I listen to splitter and splatter
as it cascades around me.
I concentrate on blur it creates,
obscuring my surroundings.

I render my thoughts incoherent
as they swim in my mind.
I should retreat inside soon,
but my body feels as though its in a bind.

I lay back on my roof top,
and I feel the rain on my skin.
And I submerse myself in the memories
and let it all sink in.

Together for years,
January to December,
I try to recollect the happy moments,
the ones I want to remember.

But the reflecting doesn't work,
because I still feel my heart collapse.
As my tears mix with the rain,
the memories turn into sad recaps.

I climb back into my window,
I crawl back into bed.
Your pillow smells of you,
and I remember what you said,

"I thought I loved you,
in fact I did.
But you don't understand love.
You are just a kid."

I get so angry,
I scream so loud!
I pound on your pillow.
I hope you're proud.

I take a deep breath,
I observe my atmosphere.
Little pieces of you remain,
little memories there and here.

I feel myself start to slip away.
In a dark place is where I want to hide.
The pain is the only place where I can escape,
and I will wait 'til I'm numb inside.

The pounding in my chest doesn't slow.
All I want to do is scream and cry.
After all we went through,
why?




 

Reviews

[ANM]

Well written clipped and pointed prose!

[Jane Doe]

Caraphernelia : PTV

[Mikayla Rasmussen]

ya thats where i got the word from it and it inspired me so i named the poem after it :)