remains

cemented feet to the floor

unable to move until i purge

what’s been eating at me.

“i miss you”

the words i never knew

i would scream into your face

with such anger

and heartache. 

“i’m standing right here” 

a response to make one think.

i guess you were in front of me

or perhaps the remains of you were.

my screams seemed to echo back to me.

i still don’t know who i was speaking to

that day of uncontrollable rage. 

but if you decide to rejoin us

a formal apology would ensue

for you deserve the best of me

but have only received the worst.

you’re not the only one who’s changed.

i hopped on that train with you,

and that’s the hardest pill to swallow.