Complicated in Love

Complicated in Love

A Story by sav

Love is so complicated, sometimes- well most times it is anxiety inducing and the last year has really taught me that. Hi, my name is Skie and I have fallen in love one too many times, I mean I just can't help it he's so perfect. I've just broken up with my boyfriend, Dax, he's a lot but he's sweet, all this relationship stuff was moving too fast and was stressing me out. 


Lately Dax has been taking up all the space in my brain but there's a little part that has been focusing on someone else, someone perfect. Jacob, that's him, he's tall and handsome and he's a really nice guy. I've had a crush on him for the longest time but I've been pushing it down, I need to focus on Dax. He's who I should be spending my time with, not some guy who doesn't even know who I am. Right? 



Jacob did talk to me today though, he was talking about something about his girlfriend or something? I don't really remember I wasn't paying attention to what he was saying, I just remember he came up to me but I was paying more attention to how gorgeous he is. WAIT! I remember what he was talking about…he asked ME?! He asked me to be his girlfriend. OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG. I really need to start paying more attention. I can not believe I missed that, and I said yes cause I was just nodding along with everything he said. Woah, I have a boyfriend now. AND I DIDNT EVEN NOTICE?!



What's going on? Why am I breathing so heavy? I don't understand, ¨MOM HELP¨. A panic attack? What does that even mean? Okay. I need water and I need to breathe. Why can't I breathe, okay okay okay. Everything's fine. I don't have to worry about that right now, that's for tomorrow. Everything's fine. I'll talk to him tomorrow and everything will be okay.



Alright, it's a new day and nothing bad's going to happen today, just go up to him, come on you can do it, oh shoot okay what do I say. ¨ Hey Jacob I hajs keiebepeosbke¨, what words even just came out of my mouth. ¨I'm sorry what?¨ Jacob says, laughing and confused. What should I do ? He's laughing, is that good? Is he making fun of me? Why can't I understand him,

am I imagining this? He's still cute but appears doubled? My head feels hot and now cold and now darkness- ¨You'll be fine Skie don't worry.¨ Jacob whispers into my ear.


*in nurses office at school* 


Oh god I passed out didn't I, it´s fine it´s probably not that bad, I think wait am I about to oh please no not now, I need to grab the sheets, what if I go flying. Okay well I guess I'll have to clean that up now. Okay well that just happened. Wait what's in my pocket, a note? 



#Hey, Skie, you passed out but I took you to the nurse, however I do have Mrs. Fee

So I didn't want to be late. Sorry I left you, feel better soon. <3#



A heart?! That's so cute, what if this ends badly though, no it'll be fine. What if he thinks I'm weird though, crap it's happening again. Okay ¨NURSE WATER PLEASE¨. Okay everything will be fine. Is that Jacob? No no no he can't see me like this please no great he's coming over here, and leaning in wait are we about to kiss? No aww, a hug, cute. ¨Are you okay? I was really worried about you, is your head okay?¨. ¨Don't worry Jacob I'll be fine…¨, Jacob walked over and sat next to me then asked, ¨do you want to come over after school?¨, oh wow he wants me to come over, yes yes yes omg yes. Oh wait, I should tell him, ¨YES, absolutely¨.



Maybe this won't be so bad after all, 



love sure is complicated.


© 2023 sav


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