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The intimacy that I would avoid,
which my best words do not reveal,
keeps my practiced defenses deployed.

There once was affection that I enjoyed,
then I masked my face to conceal
the intimacy that I would avoid.

Relationships that have all been destroyed,
when subject to bitter ordeal
keeps my practiced defenses deployed.

All manner of knowledge I have employed,
yet that only serves to repeal
the intimacy that I would avoid.

When I can see past the celluloid
I realize that a false ideal
keeps my practiced defenses deployed

Of the strength required I am devoid
And though I know that that’s not real
The intimacy that I would avoid
keeps my practiced defenses deployed.

Reviews

[Honey-Bee]

Wow! That must be hard to avoid intimacy so much, but it is nicely written poem!

[abluehorseandflowers]

It sorta sneaked up on me until it just was.