Shattered Thoughts

something from the past...

my heart huts every once in a while

my health is perfectly fine yet i cant breath sometimes

i feel that the world is closing in on me as if trapping me in a coffin

and as much as i try i cant escape, i lay there helpless

waitting for that feeling to pass... 

"it'll all be alright" i try to convince myself

yet i cant shake that feeling that something is wrong

i'm with no family, i'm with no home

i belong nowhere im without hope on the street on a cold snowy night

it's always  a cold and a snow night but all i feel is a fier heat that is choking me 

its every where and the only person notcing is me

i tried so many time but i dont know whtas wrong with me

"it'll all be alright" i repeat over and over again

im no monster, i like company and i hate staying alone

but the only place i feel safe in is where im on my own

i now relize that the feeling in my chest is because of me

warning me of me, and not that someone i love might die

i just now realized that im broken, i dont know when i was hurt

but im broken. and i hate it and i want to escape 

but i cant tell anyone, i cant show anyone 

i need help but i dont know who to ask

i cant explain whats wrong with me for i do not know whats wrong with me

i try to egnore the feeling although i know that i need to face my demons

but how do you face what you cant see?