Anxiety Rules

Descriping something I face on a day to day basis. Anxiety can really control your life if you let it. This is just a description of how it feels to deal with it.

A spontaneous combustion of fears in my head,

They wrap around my brain like a fly caught in a web.

Short-lived memories try to escape before they are expelled,

Living in a corner here is comparable to life in hell.

Ups and downs, all arounds, comings and goings.

How can you live your life, if living isn't knowing?

My thoughts travel fast, my heart a beating drum,

On the verge of rupturing, my body is going numb.

Little waves of creepiness crawl under and over my skin.

I feel like I could rip them out but they are coming from within.

Battles on a daily basis, an enemy I can never devour.

Feeling defeated and worthless, every idea goes sour.

There is pressure in my soul, a countdown to fire.

Will it ever go away, will it's time expire?

I can only hope and I can only dream,

That one day soon I'll feel like what I seem.

To everyone else, on the surface, I'm as calm as a lonely flower.

But the flames are licking at my core, and I am slowly losing power.

Dissolve another chemical, it will turn down the heat.

It will make you cold, the fire will be beat.

How long will it last this time before a grenade is thrown into the ember?

I'll just keep getting my prescription filled until I can no longer remember.

Reviews

[PurpleQuartz]

You are not alone, I suffer from anxiety too and I believe this poem really expresses how it feels.
For a while there I let it control my life and I could never think of anything else but these persistent fears. After a while though I found out that having anxiety can really take away what truly matters, and so I learnt how to manage it in my own way, I still have it of course but it's definetly not as worse.

This poem was really well written and a perfect example of how it feels.

-PurpleQuartz