The Three Specters

Haven't written in a while. A recent personal experience.

A shattered fragment of my soul

Wary of all things righteous

Pulling me in all directions

Guiding me towards sin, towards damnation

 

I see the path of light, of hope

I see the road to salvation

When I feel the familiar pull

Only to lose my way and give into the fragment

  

 

A pale ghost, omnipresent

Sucking away at my soul

Gnawing, thrashing wildly

A constant reminder of my impending fall

 

I look over my shoulders

Afraid of what I would find

A sea of sin, of pain caused

I grasp at the ephemeral, desperate to get away

A distant voice, quiet

Whispering a stream of dread

The threat of truth laid bare

Repercussions of my ill-begotten deception

 

I drown out the voice

Engross myself in material pleasures

As the voice reaches a thunderous roar

I hold on tight to the broken pieces of my mask

 

As the calls of my three specters 

Reach a cacophonous crescendo

I walk out for solace, for freedom

Lost in the battle within me, I run from them for miles

 

As I reach the end of my sanity

I hear the loving call of the abyss

A beguiling voice, easing my pain

I long to embrace the abyss, to end my suffering

 

As I lean at the edge of the abyss

A clear shout from the fragment rings out

I hold steady and see a faint light

Blurred image of those I love and those who support me

 

I focus my entire being on the image

Their love and support flashes, clear 

I turn myself around and walk back

To face my three specters, once and for all

Reviews

[Andrew Nelson Stewart]

In the beginning you give powerful images of colossal of sorrow plaguing the speaker's heart while melancholia roots its way into a split road of life. Near death experiences redeems and completely changes you in a way of seeing life in a brand new light. In the line "As I reach the end of my sanity, I hear the loving call of the abyss." The word "abyss" reminds me of Nietzsche poem " If thou gaze long into the an abyss, the abyss will also gaze into thee." Keep writing it interesting and love how it ends nicely giving the reader happy ending in a way. Sincerely your friend in writing and life

[Sid]

The idea was to personify fear, guilt, and anxiety in two stanzas each in that order with the abyss being suicide/death. Hopefully, that conveys well enough. Thank you for your comment, I appreciate it.