When the hurt won't stop...

When the heartbreaks keep coming, what do you do?
You decide to open your heart, just a little bit, talk to someone and you feel that "thing" even if just for a brief moment, and then just a quickly, they take it away!
I'm crushed, and confused, and it happened way too quickly...
I don't understand...
I guess I should've taken my original instinct and superstitions a little more freaking seriously! Because now I'm sitting here just wondering what scared you off, or what I did wrong.
Damn it, men! Why do you have to be so freaking stubborn and hurtful!!
I don't even know what I want now!
In that moment, I thought I could get into another relationship, and be happy.... but you are brushing me off already!!
I pray that you tell me there was some kind of unavoidable emergency or something, and make me feel like a fool for worrying, I really do!!
I'd rather know that I'm just dumb and paranoid, then to find out that you aren't real!!
I wanted to feel something... I DID feel something... I DO feel it.... Where did you go!?