Forlorn

Forlorn

A Poem by sonnie ibadah

It came without a warning,
All the insecurities she thought she'd long conquered.
Came crushing in once she had sobered.
Right off the bat she had learnt that nothing ever really dies.
Not the well buried secrets and definitely not the lies.
 
Maybe she was foolish. Maybe she was reckless.
Or maybe she was just a broken girl feeling so helpless,
For every random stranger she tried to impress.
Turned out to be just another stage to undress.
 
Even needle marks tracing her skin like constellations,
Couldn't erase the shame plastered on her heart like decorations.
They couldn’t fix her thoughts. Couldn’t relieve her pain.
Couldn’t erase the nightmares from her brain.
 
Slowly, gently, darkness unrolled it’s splendor,
And she gave into her demons in a sweet surrender,
To drown the bitter memories she'd rather not remember.
And harden the soul that was once too tender.
 
To her, life was a thorny one-way track,
Where she'd rather stumble forward than go back,
To where Mummy was always numb on Prozac.
And Daddy was a sadistic maniac.
 
Their disturbing resemblance filled her with terror,
Every time she dared look in the mirror.
Like a bad jingle, their hurtful words echoed in her brain, 
Until they threatened to drive her insane.
 
Of all the unthinkable choices she had ever made,
The easiest was to drown the haunting voices in her head.
For when the regrets pass and the worries are gone,
She would finally get a chance to move on.

So she took the whiskey and handful of pills,
Hoping 'nothingness' would finally cure her ills.
Then she lay on the cold floor and counted to three,
Until the bright light came to set her free.

© 2020 sonnie ibadah


Author's Note

sonnie ibadah
This was written for the; 10 Words I Give Contest
The 10 Given Words were:
W A R N I N G
B A T
H E L P L E S S
R A N D O M
D E C O R A T I O N S
R E M E M B E R
F O R W A R D
D I S T U R B I N G
J I N G L E
T H R E E

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I seriously hope you won my friend... if ya didn't, I wanna know why ... Oh' and I know a good hit man if ya want one.... Joking aside, I think you did remarkably well with this challenge... I am so bad at them myself ... maybe its performance anxiety or summat... Do keep them coming though my friend...

Neville

Posted 3 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

sonnie ibadah

3 Years Ago

LMAO...Thank you so much. And don't lose that hit man's number, it could come in handy one day, Lol... read more
Neville

3 Years Ago


I really did my friend.... respect :)



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This was a great piece for the challenge and I think you did wonderfully with it. It has a disturbing dystopian feel to it like an impending sense of doom, lingering. Addictions and depression, anxiety and fear all mixed in the recipe; a lesson on how to reach the feeling of forlorn. Great job. F.

Posted 1 Year Ago


sonnie ibadah

1 Year Ago

"Impending sense of doom" love that. Thank you so much!
First and foremost, sorry for the very late reply. 2020 has been a whirlwind, to say the least.
Second most, thank you for your entry! Ever so tragic; so realistic. For sure worth the read.
Nice placement of the given words! Well done.

Happy New Year!

Posted 3 Years Ago


sonnie ibadah

3 Years Ago

Thank you!! Happy New Year!

I seriously hope you won my friend... if ya didn't, I wanna know why ... Oh' and I know a good hit man if ya want one.... Joking aside, I think you did remarkably well with this challenge... I am so bad at them myself ... maybe its performance anxiety or summat... Do keep them coming though my friend...

Neville

Posted 3 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

sonnie ibadah

3 Years Ago

LMAO...Thank you so much. And don't lose that hit man's number, it could come in handy one day, Lol... read more
Neville

3 Years Ago


I really did my friend.... respect :)
Some sadly have a really bad deal of life's cards and things spiral out of control. You have penned a good write here using ten set words. I wish you luck Sonnie in the competition. All good wishes.

Chris

Posted 3 Years Ago


sonnie ibadah

3 Years Ago

It is truly sad.

Thank you Chris!
Well done Sonnie. You could give me a months worth of sundays and I wouldn't get anywhere near joining the dots into anywhere near as clear a narrative as your thoughts took you.
It flows effortlessly and builds on each verse, into a complete story that I would have no idea where joined together by the word prompts given.
Superb.

Posted 3 Years Ago


sonnie ibadah

3 Years Ago

Awww...my head is about to burst from all these praises! Lol...thank you Lorry!
you did wonders with the ten words...and it is such a shame when someone gets on this track, a vicious cycle that won't end unless the one going in the circle ends it herself.
When there seems no way out, no one to turn to.
well done.
j.

Posted 3 Years Ago


sonnie ibadah

3 Years Ago

Indeed. Thank you Jacob.
I was so into your story that it came as a surprise that you wrote it for a 10 word contest! Your story was heartfelt and heartbreaking. The ten words were used awesomely and contributed to the effect. I'm into 10 word challenges myself, so I was thrilled by this great poem!

Posted 3 Years Ago


sonnie ibadah

3 Years Ago

Wow. I'm glad you liked this. Thanks bud :)
AJNJ

3 Years Ago

You're welcome! :))

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Added on July 28, 2020
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Tags: loneliness, heartbreak, abuse, pain, love, suicide

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