Hurt

Lately Ive been feeling or not feeling, rather.

My body carries this heavy weight,

this sadness,

that is a part of me now,

just like a shadow.

I can't escape these feelings anymore.

Its always creeping back in,

begging for my attention.

I am becoming this monster that I can't control.

I am becoming hard. cold, indifferent.

Yet deep inside myself,

I am screaming.

My heart seems to be cracking.

And soon my heart will shatter.

I can feel my heart breaking.

I don't know how to feel,

I hurt the ones I care most for,

and yet I do nothing.

I say nothing,

and I hear nothing.

I am indifferent to the world.

As if I'm not a human being living beside others,

but more like a shadow,

who follows your every step,

who is always there,

but never says a word.