false hope

a poem i wrote when i was feeling alone & as if no one would love me

it was the false hope that killed me.
believe me, my feelings were overloading my mind and that was bad enough.
but it was the constant aspiration for someone to make me feel as if i was more than nothing.
and the disappointment resulting when i realized that certain person would never come along was unbearable.
the truth is, what really killed me was that my brain was real good at convincing me that fantasies could become reality and that my hopes could never reach their peek.