What Being Alone For a Year Feels LikeA Poem by Devin
I mean this in an ironic but maybe painfully relative way
That being alone for a year did not teach me some hardened life lesson One where I can take gentle footsteps into my driveway at 2am and listen to the moon and then tell someone online about it the next day, Brushing off the ends of my sentences that I’ve so daintily organized into secret stanzas so it appears romanticized and full of color With a joke or a couple trio slang of letters So I don’t appear as though I truly and desperately need help But that’s beside the fact, Because the moon didn’t tell me anything of importance Or anything I can nod shyly to and glance to my feet Whispering into my jacket that Yes, that makes total sense! Thank you, moon. That didn’t happen But if there’s anything I did in fact gain from this lengthy numbness It’s that even if there’s nobody there To hear The silence can still listen It can reverberate and ricochet back into the roof of your mouth Where the cocoon of empty essay cursors are just waiting to bloom Just waiting and waiting For someone like you to finally hit one of the worn down letters on the keyboard So that I can finally speak See? I’m finally half awake. Maybe now I am feeling something of the sort Perhaps my dry tongue is dipping into the watered down silence The one that makes me wonder if that poem I read about loneliness on Tumblr really is true That I can open my mouth and see the butterfly with the black text wings I can see her now She’s beating her wings The cursor is no longer just that The tragic crumpled sphere of paper with no word or rhyme Hey moon, I did it. It’s an entire garden The butterflies are threaded through my hair and down my throat But it’s no longer empty documents just stuffed into my lungs All for the wretched motive of keeping me sane or even half decent on any given day It’s the open page The cursor is moving at rapid speeds and the funny thing is There’s only one writer and one butterfly and one moon But that’s okay Because every now and then she’ll go back to the driveway And this time her whole body is there Not just her mouth with the swollen tongue And the moon will say nothing of importance Not even a half decent thread of support But I smile and hand her mine The support I found in the dryness of a rhyme. I woke up. © 2019 Devin |
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Added on June 5, 2019 Last Updated on June 5, 2019 Author
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