i forgot

its hard to tell as story about yourself. when the pain you grew up with seems so normal. many forget that there is always gonna be that little girl who got left behind to become the person she is now

i forgot whats its like 

to be happy 

when i was a child 

i was happy 

like all kids are 

but as i got older

i realized that life wasn't happy 

i put my smile away 

i tried so hard to hold on 

this little girl with a big smile 

she sat on this step 

not understanding why 

one day the sad her got up and walked away 

leaving this happy girl all alone

she never even looked back 

sadness and anger was all she had

she fell into a life 

that may many didn't see her 

she was gone for good 

hidden in her own face

she continued to fade into the sadness she wore upon her face

she never spoke about where she came from 

always trying to cover up who they were 

what they were 

she never spoke to anyone about the past

she fell silent agianest the wind 

she fell into the storm 

not even a sound came from her lips 

she stood still 

watching the world pass before her

no one saw her 

life went on as she struggled 

one day she found someone willing 

to climb the darkest mountain 

only to realize he will be the same 

a man full of lies 

full of disbelief 

she let go 

she struggled again 

because pain was her friend 

pain was what made her be who she was

then she let go again 

this time with someone else

only she struggled to be there for him 

he never answered 

he ignored her

he was all the same

she didn't know why 

but a smile was all she dreamed of 

Author's Note

ignore any spelling mistakes i wrote this kind of fast, i hope you enjoy i haven't wrote in a long time and i miss it. i miss expressing how i feel instead of holding it in. im used to it by now but i hate hurting even if it feels normal to me.

Reviews

[Santiago]

I honestly love this! whether there was spelling errors or not i loved it!

[taylorrose]

thank you im so glad you like it