ALL ALONE

A Poem by Rich

sometimes i feel like runnin away from everythin ive ever known
i just wanna get away from all the s**t that my life has become
so i could just forget about this whole in my chest where a now cold heart used to call home
just get in my car and start drivin, drivin, to a destitation unknown, as long as im gone

feelin all alone
even when around my friends
feelin not at home
even when in my residence
my lifes out of control
i can feel it spinnin
i can feel it drillin
me into a deeper whole

somedays i feel the earth crumblin beneath my feet and i fall
cryin out for help at the top of my lungs, but deaf ears cant hear my calls
i sit alone and i cry, feelin like i wanna die, starin at these 4 walls
feelin them closin in on me, on me, til theres on air to breathe at all

feelin all alone
even when around my friends
feelin not at home
even when in my residence
my lifes out of control
i can feel it tumblin
i can feel it crumblin
til im in a deeper whole

and i just dont know what to do to pick myself up
im at the point where i just wanna give in, ive had about enough
im tired of the bullshit, tired of god, tired of all the things he does
im tired of livin, tired of cryin, im tired of tryin, just so i can get crushed

im so tired of the struggle
what have i done to deserve this
im tired of tryin to be happy
is it really worth this

feelin all alone
even when around my friends
feelin not at home
even when in my residence
my lifes out of control
i can feel it collapsin
i can feel it crackin
til i fall into a deeper whole

feelin so unclear
about my whole life
will i persever
and make it through this strife
i wish i could disappear
feelin not at home
feelin all alone
i have got no one to console me when i cry my tears