Bind My Heart

The ways of BDSM are so freaking appalling to me...I wonder why I'm so attracted to them? :D

Tie me up.

Pin me down.

Take control

of my every movement.

 

Punish me

for my imperfections.

Beat me

for my mistakes.

 

Gentle gets boring.

Bites

and nibbles

get harder.

 

Take your sick pleasure

and leave me.

 

You disappear into the distance,

fading like a mirage

and I'm left wondering

if you were ever really here at all?

 

The only things

you've left behind,

are bruises

and the tingle of your love

lingering on my skin.

 

Night after night

day after day

I tell myself

it's abuse

that it's not right.

 

But when I'm lost in the moments

lust covers

all reason.

I think

"What if I want it,"

Loving the sick games

we play.

 

I couldn't live

without your love

no matter how much

it hurts.

 

I would try to pull away

but I love the way

you pull me back too much.

Author's Note

I posted this on an old profile, but I've changed it quite a bit!

Reviews

[John]

Abuse is such a fascinating word, simply because we so often attach pleasure to the term (masturbation was long deemed "self abuse' by most). I love the way this drives home the point of mutualism, but I still get some sense of a desire of complete self abuse, in any form really, physically pleasurable or not. If nothing else, wow, loved this piece.

[Angel Bluestocking]

This piece is very sensual, hypnotizing, and intense. That's all I can really describe it, your work speaks for itself. Beautiful. Just beautiful.

[An owl on the moon]

There is an intensity that tries to feed an endless hunger... a powerful longing that dances in and out of the mind... Your words give it color and substance..

[aaron]

its deep. i agree with spoken when she mentioned the thin line between pain and pleasure but if the point comes when there is more abuse then love...its time to leave. in fact any abuse is should not be allowed. but if its some what of a game for you and your lover. then i cant say anything agents that. all and all a great pome. and there are times when we are pulled into something because we have gone threw it most if not all of our lives.

[SpokenWord]

There is a thin line between pain and pleasure it is easily crossed but it is difficult as we pass our own judgement on what pleases us so the pain maybe isn't enjoyed mentally as much as the pleasure. Also an abusive relationship should never be taken as pleasure but who knows what the mind enjoys. Great write.

[tigerclaw]

Well is it love or pain. Sometimes we know what we want but we refuse to admit it. This one had me wanting more.

[Lily Mae]

If you know what you like and what you want it's madness to try to let it go.. Great write..xx

[HopelesslyDevoted]

love is confusing, the moments we get caught up in are the most mind boggling! we think we want one thing and as soon as we are in the room with the person we love, we completely change our minds again. great poem though.

[Eli]

Very nice message, I like it! I would be careful leaving so many short lines and long lines mixed together, because it can often disrupt the flow of the poem. But other than that, I think you did a good job :)

[tigerclaw]

Very strong words. The games we play at times is very confounding to me.