Harem-Scarem

Poem #1- an assignment. Previously titled, "Fear".

I can feel your old self coming back
To haunt me, your
Sly grin spreads
A Saturn return... May I refund it?
Taunting, your mask hides
What I've already known
Warm warm weather reminding me of
That time
Those times
You made me feel as though
I might die
Lies, have that power
No more?

You told me you wouldn't leave me for another
But you've done it before
You told me you'd stay
Instead, you walked out the door
Overwhelming fear
Screams so deafening
Till it all becomes clear

Your gaze averts my eyes completely
Looking for an out, but why?
Why why why why why why why
Have I turned
Into a regrettable
Insatiable
Monster of Interrogation 
I want your hands
To cover me like a shield and claim, "mine."
But in the same token, I still wonder
Will those same hands
Asphyxiate
When I get out of line

And this is where I ask the question:
We're the voices Julliard heard in his head just 
Paranoid delusions
Or reality
Just 
          swept
                       under
     the rug
Too taboo for discussion?
Let's just pretend it's not there
Perhaps it  will just go away on it's own



 

Author's Note

should i stay or should i go?

Reviews

[Boris Jonathan Novak]

You should go :-)
How I do know this all to well:
"You told me you wouldn't leave me for another
But you've done it before
You told me you'd stay
Instead, you walked out the door"

I felt this on so many levels. I know it more than I care to remind myself. This work speaks volumes about the pain and confusion that rears its ugly head in an otherwise worth-pursuing relationship.

Another great work!

[Kelsey B.]

Oh man.
I adore this poem.
It captures the feeling of
being stuck and needing an out,
but not being certain about leaving.
A poem full of shiver-inspiring moments. :]

[abejoyal]

This is a nice poem. The only issue I had with it was the semi-existence of a rhyme scheme. It seems like it might be in there at some points, only to disappear for a while. Just something you might wanna work out/